All it took was a text

to once again stop me dead in my tracks. Well to be fair, it was more like frozen in line at the OC fair with a man that was the male version of me and even though it was nice to have the familiar company and take my mind off the disappointing and lonely night I had the night before,

https://kaseynation.wordpress.com/2010/08/06/struggling-for-happiness/

it wasnt the company i was hoping for. I guess in all honesty I was just trying to keep my mind occupied and focused and I was starting to get used to the feeling of being disappointed by Kasey. I dont think he meant to disappoint me. Im actually starting to think its either a very big game he likes/use to playing or he has Narsassistic qualities that he doesnt see or understand because he is…well.. a narsisstist

narcissism

-A psychological condition characterized by self-preoccupation, lack of empathy, and unconscious deficits in self-esteem.

So here i am, at the fair having some good laughs with a guy friend about to order a giant hot dog when i look at my phone to see I had missed a  call from “MR AWESOME”. It was Kasey himself and it wasnt some LAME ass text, it was an actual voicemail along with a sincere text. It was short and sweet and exactly what i needed to hear in order for him to redeem himself

“Hey babe its Kase, Sorry I didnt hear your phone call last night I feel asleep. I  put my phone by my ear so i would hear your call but i passed out and it didnt help. Id love to see you. call me”

That was it… Thats all it took… when i read that he wanted to take me on a “date” i was already planning my excuse to escape the fair and get home. Once I heard his voice it was hard to stay upset. Ive always thought he had a sexy voice along with several other qualities but something makes me smile when im actually talking to him rather than texting. It could be that by the time he actually takes the time to call Ive already been so pissed off that I have no other emotions left but to be happy to hear from him. Kinda like a son that sneaks out of room at night and steals the car only to go missing for 5 days. I mean your pissed in the beginning but once hes home you just want to hug him and your glad hes alright. Sure your also happy the spoiled brat didnt ruin your Lexus but the first thought is Happiness…LOL

I drove up to see Kasey in LA. I was excited and hornier than ever. We had talked previously the night before of what our next encounter would be like, and I couldnt help but touch myself as I heard him speak over the phone about it. I wasnt sure if he liked the chase or the thought of being able to live out his fantasies but he was finally starting to warm up to me and realized SEX was my second language. I wrote him once of my urge to suck his dick and then be fucked in the ass, which started a string of kinky texts back and fourth. He reminded me of my fantasy as I drove up the 405 to see him and I could feel myself suddenly get wet. God, why did I want this man so bad? Who cared? I was sober and having fun.

After we made up for lost time the way we fantasized about, I got dressed and ready for the”Date” he had promised me. He took me out to eat at a nice steak house and was having a very good night until I look over my shoulder to find LEE?

WTF? Why is LEE here?

As Kasey and LEE began to keep each other company I grew bored and restless. I was hoping to get rid of LEE who knew I wanted him gone but Kasey’s promise to give him an expensive cigar was more important to him than my need for quality time.

I needed to have some Fun since Lee was putting a damper on my date. We stopped at Qs before going home and im not sure if it was a combination of the guys starring at me, this guy named Adam asking for a picture with me, or my awesome dress, but Kasey suddenly pulled me aside and Kissed me like I had never felt before

Im not one to exaggerate things (I leave for that Kasey) but this Kiss had more passion, feeling, and sensuality then any kiss i have had in a long time, and definitely out of the times I have every kissed Kasey. I was taken back by it and pulled away to look into his eyes. It was the kind of kiss that made you feel like your feet were not planted on the ground, the kind of Kiss that made you tingle down below and the kind of kiss i had only felt after falling in love and marrying my husband.

Created another form of Gambling…..

“Some executives, in an effort to compensate for horrible experiences as children, find an exhilaration in the climb to power. As CEOs of billion-dollar corporations, they only feel alive when dealing with crisis or huge risk. Leveraged buyouts, takeovers and acquisitions become the “bets” of just another form of compulsive gambling. Hooked on the stress of extraordinary power and the risk of losing everything, they cannot leave their jobs. Deal making twenty hours a day, they can hardly sleep or be with their families. They play with traumatic possibility and cannot leave it alone. For recreation they love high-speed motorcycles, sky diving and other high risk diversions.”

Patrick Carnes

Golden Monkeys and Peoples’ Monies

What is up with this dude? Why is it that after having a good night with drinks and friends, does he still feel the need to have more drinks until he almost cant speak and is walking (if thats what you want to call it) like a newborn. I feel so bad for him. maybe he did quit gambling and took up drinking? He’s really going to hate life tomorrow when he wakes up. I wonder if he will remember telling the host upstairs at the Gold Lounge that he wanted a cabana poolside for us and some friends. I dont know what the host saw as Kasey told him his name (Later found out Kasey ‘s last poker stats recorded by the Hotels was 7k per hand) but by the responsiveness of kasey’s request and then an offer to comp his room and other charges… I was now certain I needed to find out what I had gotten myself into???